Had been tie-ing up my hair to work,

as i've been feeling extremely hot!!!

(My shop, air-conditioned somemore)

& my sister's bringing BbySheyenne to a Bday Party!
& this's her dress code today! Awesome barbie doll!

I think i've nothing better to do during work, thats why i've been thinking so much!

On many occasions, i've been thinking about this word 'Fate'. I used to believe strongly in fate, but now i don't. Now sometimes thinking back, i can't help but to admit somethings are really fated. When i believe in Fate, fate crashed me down. I started to lose faith in fate & think that this word 'Fate' is nonsense. There's no such things. But when i don't believe 'Fate' anymore, things happened to make me BELIEVE in it once again. Thinking back, maybe it's really fated i guess. Alot of people said, how come you will end up with this guy whom you had been together for only 1 year? We were all thinking that you'll definitely end up with your ex boyfriend whom you had been together for 4 years. Ahaah, they're wrong! :) I used to have an ex boyfriend whom we had been together for a total for 4 years(in between breakups) but he eventually didn't end up being my Husband. Instead, the man who i met after him became my Husband instead. Do you think it's all fated? My ex boyfriend & i ended, & less than a month had passed.. I met my Husband, and the most ridiculous part is that .. We know each other through Friendster, a online website that i had never ever believed in. I didn't expect myself to be with someone whom i know online, everyone who knew me will know i'm not that kind who'll meet guys that i've known online. A absolute nono for me, lol. But unexpectedly, i met my Husband though it's him who forced to meet that time. And yes, all thanks to him i got back on my feet after the breakdown i had after my Ex boyfriend. And yes, i fall in love with him. I never thought we'll worked out, never. I thought it's only a game, i just need his accompanies at that point of time when i'm lonely. Furthermore, alot don't see well of us. As i'm staying in the West while his staying in the East, one end to another. Lol. But i was wrong, time flies i fall deeper into him. We've been together for months yet it felt for years. We even made plans to get engaged in end of 2010. I starts to get scared, scared of being hurt again.. But when i realised, there's no way i can let him go again. We broken up a few times, i cried & broke down. My heart ached like the times when i had to let go of my Ex boyfriend, seems serious. I didn't expect myself to fall so hard for this man. On my past relationships, i've let go easily except for the 4 years one. Totally freaked out when i was trying so hard to let go of this one. But surprisely, when i managed to somehow let go of a little bit.. We got back together again.. And this time, I told myself i'm not gonna fall deep down again but never had i expect this patchback is gonna be the last of us. We got married, the plan we had to get engaged this year end was brought forward as i've our fruit of love in me. It's kinda weird, we tried several times for a baby when we're still deeply in love . We never had, but when we distanced quite very much .. Here come along this lil life to bond us back together. Really, weird. Till today, this question repeatedly came into my mind " Is this really fate? " The ending is that, the man sleeping beside me every single day till the rest of my life is not the 4 years Ex boyfriend but the man whom i've being together for only a year. Time really doesn't matters, be it how long we've being together. Because the one whom we're spending our life with, might not be the one we've being together with for years. Well, maybe it's not really fate .. Maybe it's my destiny :) In life, everyone will have relationships that they love till 轟轟烈烈 but this feeling won't last long. I fall deeply in love with my Husband in the beginning, but given up on this love i had for him several times.. But till now, i still love him very much. No matter how much he've changed from the time we've met till now, how much hurt/tears & heartaches he've given me all these times when we've being together till now, i still will fall back in love with him. I accepted his everything, his bad points his flaws & his extremely weird personalities & temper .. Even though his not the best of the best, his not as romantic as he is anymore, he didn't show how much he loved me like before .. As long as he's a good husband & a good father-to-be to my son .. Nothing else matters .. I accepted this whatever Fate or Destiny..