Think before you speak
Haven't been blogging daily like how i used to. Because i don't have any photos to upload, so might as well don't blog. If not it'll seems so boring in my post. Wahahaha. So just anyhow kop one photo from my Sister's facebook. A photo that we took with Moomikins & BbySheyenne @ Tampines Mall one fine evening. My face damn damn damn cui now :( Dry & breakout. Ever since i'm pregnant, my face had always been going against me. Kept breaking out, i nearly hang myself. I used to have flawless skin, now my skin became like cui. God bless that my skin will get better after i gave birth. Been thinking whether i should go back to my Cosmetic job. Had been in the beauty industry for years, though part time is what i always do. Been thinking whether i should go back, as a full-timer this time round. But IF i go back work as a makeup advisor, i'll need to work on weekends. & i'm afraid i might not have time for Bbyboy. Moomikins will be taking care of Bbyboy for me, Hus agreed too. As Moomikins have full experience in taking care of newborns all the way till baby grows up(My mom is a nanny) But distance is also a problem, Jurong to Bedok. Gosh. Before Hus & i got married, when we were still in a relationship. Had been travelling from like West to East & East to West. So imagine, the same routine back. Lol. And we'll only fetch Bbyboy home on weekends, so IF i go back being a full-time beauty advisor. I won't even have the time to fetch Bbyboy back home on weekend & take care of him! :( So, i think this thinking of returning back to the beauty industry can end. Tsk, get a office job instead. So i'll have the weekend off, Sighs. I miss those times when i'm still a Beauty/Make up Advisor. Damn fun, especially those times in IN uovi. Like ke one big family only. Waahaha. I think these 2 months working in the shop, my brain go rusty & dead already. Haven't been brainstorming & using my brain recently. & i'm becoming more & MORE forgetful. Tsk. And i need to get new bigger size T-shirts & tops. I think sooner or later i can't fit into my T-shirt anymore. My tummy seems to be enlarging bigger again zzz. These few days, had been feeling like my tummy gonna burst sia, lol. Sit like this lie like this also cannot. Keep bueysong only, i felt uncomfortable sleeping also! :( Frequent toilet trips, used to it. But now whenever i wake up, getting outta the bed i also have difficulties zzz. Will sudden sharp pain on my ass & back. When i bend down to pick up something or what, my back will crack. Will hear a sound of bone breaking, Lmao. Cool right? My body like became so much older, lolol! Being pregnant is not easy, but for the sake of our baby everything is worthwhile. I still remember when i'm in my tri1, horrible. Kept having the all time dislike morning sickness. And moodswingness, little bit can cry the whole world down.(?) Now tri2, everything getting better. Say byebye to Morning Sickness, but welcome the new syptoms. Moodswing still remains, i'll still get upset over the slightest thing. Especially what my hus do, affects me alot. The things he said, affects me alot too. But something added in to make life happier, is Baby's movements. He'll kick every now & then to show me his there & to accompany me when i'm totally bored. Appetite getting better, gaining weight now. Bbyboy is slightly overweight, i kept repeating to myself. No more fried food, mcdonalds & all. Maybe ONCE in a while. Lol. Don't wanna have difficulties in labour:x When my friends know that Bbyboy is slightly overweight inside me, they were like " Sure not, you looked so skinny still for a pregnant woman where got overweight " Lol. it's not me, it's Baby! hahaha. And i realise, i losed all the confidences i used to have in myself. I felt that i looked fat & ugly now. I'm worried my hus will get sick of seeing my face soon, i'm worried he'll find someone prettier & skinnier than me. Lol, i know i think too much. But i think it's normal to felt this way now that i'm pregnant? I totally lose confidence in myself, no more confidence Stephanie. Damn. When someone said i became fatter i whole day been thinking of it. And i felt very affected by it, when someone told me i looked like an auntie now. I'll become angry, it's like " Fuck you, it's not like i wanted to look like this right " I fucking curse & swear directly in your face. One day, when you got your wife pregnant, i'll tell this to your wife too. Sighs, & all the stares i got from people zz. Looking at my tummy, & all. Hello, you never see before pregnant woman is it? Or is my bump too cute that you all can't get your eyes off my tummy?! -.- Ya i looked too young to be pregnant, but who cares. I love my bump & i'm proud to be a mother when i'm so young only. Keep your mouth shut & keep your eyes off. It's fucking irritating. Damn you.Hope things get better, June is ending & welcoming July. Another brand new month, a much more hectic & busier month i predicted. Hope i'll still be able to continue coping with the stress & tiredness. Cheers to all Mother-to-be(s) & all lovelies!
P/S: You're not being understanding, & you're not looking into the situation we're in now. You're looking at it so easy, because you're not the one who will be working so hard. Fml.
StephanieK 淑芬,
