Round of applause!
Firstly, Wanna congrats those readers who managed to guess my new link! :-) Please tag my tagboard yea, because i wanna know who knew me so well & who is sooo smart! Hehe. Http://wipingthe--tears.bs.com would be my new link from today onwards, Http://s--dalliance.bs.com is past .. But this blog, will still remains the same.. Because part of this blog is done by him.. The pretty dollgirl, i remembered he spent time @ my place helping me to edit & put the dollgirl in.. How can i bare to ditch this blog then? Hmm. As for the link, this song if you people know .. Is a Jpop song which i'm still very in love with now.. Everything actually started from this song last year .. Lmao, imagine if i've never chance upon this song ..What would the outcome be now? What would my life be now ? Sigh.. So that's why, everything is pre-destined bah? I'm still coughing that badly :-( Damn. I seriously can't take it ok. I can't even sleep well, my dark eyes circles are getting from bad to worse! Urghh . I had got school in the evening after work, Sighs. I've decided, i'll live my life independently from now onwards. These few days, i can go out walking on the streets alone .. Watch movie alone, eat alone, think alone, slack alone & shop alone .. So i don't see why i can't be independent. it's better i stay away from everyone, i don't want anymore troubles. & i'll stop being paranoid, paranoid leads to hell only .. Not heaven zzz . So many things happened within 24 hours .. Sigh, In the beginning i thought it's a dream .. It's like a dream come true again .. But less than 24 hours, or should i say 12 hours ? Everything became a nightmare .. The feeling of heartache, feeling of heartbreaking & losing people around me once again .. Perhaps, everything is fated. My life is destined to be like this?-.- 2010, it's definitely not a good year for me. Oh man, so much things had been happening in my life .. So much UNPLEASANT thing i emphasized. 22nd/friday, is Batok's Beiya Da ri zi .. Guess will be going down bah. Promised to be there alr.. Time flies, people changes .. It's time for me to change too .. I should think for myself more this time, not thinking for others more .. Because of this bad point, i caused tremendous heartaches to myself. Lmao, serve myself right!=.- Happy for Ahboy & BbJoavian, @ least now BbJoavian is happier than the past 1 month :) Like that, i also can rest my mind in peace bout her case le. Heh. I'm more worried for BbSharon instead, sigh. Even tho, we somehow distanced alot bec of some reasons .. The 3 of us, but it's ok le :) As long as you girls are happy.. I know that you girls are happy, it's more than enough! As for BbYvonne, her botak can only come back 1 month later. This 1 month is gonna be hard for her i guess. But fret not! Cause you've BbJo & BbSharon with you! :D & last but not least, BbFion.. This one confirm no need worry. Among us all, her life is the best ! Lol. Alvis dote on her so much, love her to death. walau, this one really don't need to worry de! hahaha. Got alvis to take care of this pussy for me.. I'm more than happy. Heya, that's my life .. Revolving around these babies, of course there's still this particular special one .. the man of my life .. But everything had ended, things isn't the same anymore .. Because in his eyes, i'm no longer the good one . Accept the fact, that i am not able to go back to the place in his heart anymore .. All i can do now, is to try my best to go on with my life as normal even when his no longer there for me .. As long as i know, he've moved on & his very happy with his current life without me ... That's enough ... It's hard to let this go, i can't bare to seriously .. I won't .. But i'll keep it all inside my heart ... For everyone's own good, this is the best way .. No matter how much i still love, miss .. There's nothing, i can do now. Idk what emotions i should put here ... :)? or :( .. Urghh. Idk anymore .........P/S: If only, i press this particular button .. I'll be brought back to end of April last year ..
StephanieK 淑芬,
