Now come with me to my hideway
Don't make me lose my mind

2010`
I wanna go to Marina Barrage & Cozy Bay again....

Going to meet Dym & BbVerris :-)
Then to Bedok to look for 陈嬷嬷..

Sometimes i really wonder, what's on your mind ?
So what's the situation like, i don't wanna give myself false hope
because i don't wanna fall again..
Maybe it's better that we remain like this?
But i can't help thinking what ve you been doing during
those time when we're not talking ..
I felt so worried, felt so unimportant ..
Damn .. i miss you very the much.. :(
idk why, i am forgetting part of your face..
i try to remember by looking @ photos..
But the images, is so blur .. it's like fading off even though
i tried to remember it in my heartz..

I felt so bad, my mood is great yday .. I guess it's bec
we've been talking.. you made one of those days brighten up.
So when Mr.Driver talked to me yday, i replied..
but i don't feel like replying too :\ i'm more engrossed,
more eager to talk to yknow who ..
On those badmood/emotional days, whenever he talk to me
i felt irritated & always replied him harshly ..
yday when i replied him, he told me his so happy..
Idk what to say, i felt so bad.. Even though i've
made things cleared to him, but why is he still doing all this
I really dk how, i've repeated myself again & again..
he asked why didn't i ask him to fetch me yday after batok.
Fuck, obviously it's because the one i wanna see is not him-.-
LOL. am i bad in saying this? :(
I know, i'll never ever have anything for him.
That's why, i don't reply his texts/msn & everything..
@ least, i know what i'm doing now is right ..
For sure, i won't wanna hurt an innocent person..

because .. i realised ..
i'm still in love, in love with that guy
who picked me up last year ..

NOBODY CAN IMAGINE, HOW HAPPY I WAS
WHEN WE WERE TALKING & WEBCAMMING YDAY ...
HEHEHEHE. omg, been quite some time since
i felt so crazy. I think back of the sweet&happy times ..
@ the same time, i told myself ..
I wanna create new memories to make myself happier..
Oh man, i'm getting greedy ..
& i am selfish > :(